letters to an old friend

My book letters to an old friend is out! It is a collection of poetry written as poems. It is sapphic, yearning, and about unrequited love and a friendship break-up which really wounded me. So if that sounds like something that you'd be interested in, I'd appreciate you picking up a copy!

I'm still not sure what to do about my book fairy tale love, but I am hoping I can find a solution to where it can still be published because it really is one of my happier books; and I would like to have something out in the world that isn't all about the darkness I've faced but rather about the hope and the light I would hope to receive in the future. We shall see!

Sad News

I'm not sure what is going to happen with my book fairy tale love. I was so excited to see what the publisher was coming up with for the three different editions, but he messaged me a few months ago to say that he was no longer publishing my book. He said he would continue to help me, though, and I could self-publish it.

I was really crushed by that news. I still am, if I am honest. I'm not sure what's going to happen with that book, but I really enjoy that it is one of my brighter, happier poetry collections. A lot of my poetry touches on my trauma and dark things/situations/incidents that have happened in my life so I created this one to put some of my love/joy/laughter into the world, as well.

I will hopefully find a new home for it if this publisher drops it all together because I honestly don't know what else to do, at that point. It is also sad because they were going to publish another book of mine, but obviously that's not going to happen. I guess that's what happens when you get your hopes up, but sometimes even with low or no expectations people still let me down. I guess it's a part of life, sometimes.

Onwards Adventures

I don't usually post anthologies that I'm in, but I think I might start doing that sometimes provided I remember to just so I can give you guys some more content! It may encourage me to post more. Maybe. I'm not sure. Ha ha, I know my posting is a bit sporadic, but I really do try. Work/life/writing/social balance can be tricky to get just right but I do make an effort.

Writing is my passion and my delight, and I do hope that my writing reaches my audience one day if it has not done so already.

My poems “in the name of villainy”, “i will punish them”, “i have no regrets”, “if nothing matters”, “you betrayed me”, and “i don’t want to die” are a part of Onwards Adventure Fantastic Tales:you can grab a copy here! This collection means a lot to me because it was inspired by roleplaying and DND - both of which I love although I've never been part of a DND campaign yet. Roleplaying on the other hand...I've done forum based roleplaying since I was thirteen years old. I dedicated these poems to the people I've roleplayed with over the years. Because I appreciate them being part of my story.

Even the ones who betrayed me in some way and did me dirty taught me lessons even if it's just not who to become. Karma will get them, I'm sure, but they may be characters I kill off in my books, too. Ha ha! What can I say? I hold grudges. I got a good heart, but I don't like being taken advantage of. I'm not the people pleasing little pushover they may have once known.

I hope you enjoy the collection, and I appreciate your interest in me and my writing/art! Have yourselves a good rest of your day!

There's Enough Room For Us All

This is how I feel when I see that people have observed my work, but just ignore it. It hurts my feelings a little bit because I always try to be supportive of my friends, and I am always genuinely happy to see them succeed at something that they've dreamed of! I just wish someone would feel the same way about me and my works. Just because I'm prolific doesn't mean I don't need support.

Word of mouth or sharing my posts is a great way to start because I feel like despite my many books not a lot of people know about me or my writing. I would rather stop slipping through the cracks and find my audience because the silence I hear right now is a bit disquieting.

Making Some More Noise

No one's made much noise for my latest book faerie witch queen so I thought I'd make another post. There's a whopping six likes on my personal Facebook account and my other social media isn't doing much better. I had zero likes on both Bluesky and Twitter. The algorithms are really kicking my butt on social media, but I'm doing my best to promote my work.

So if you happen to like poetry, Sleeping Beauty, and Maleficent maybe check out this new collection of mine! I would truly appreciate it.

Being an indie author is hard, but I'm trying not to let it get me down! I love writing, I love my books, and I can't imagine a life where I wasn't writing and dreaming and simply creating. I hope you lot enjoy my creations, too!

letters to an old friend

Sorry for the mopey last post. I just wanted to be honest. I sometimes feel like I am a failure in comparison to my other writer friends. I know comparison is a thief of joy, and I should just focus on my own work; but sometimes I can't help but notice. It makes me wonder if there's something wrong with me. But maybe my supporters are just more silent. If you're one of my silent supporters, could you please make some noise? It would be nice to know I'm appreciated.

In other news, I have a new book coming out soon. It's titled letters to an old friend, and it's a book of epistolary poems (poems written in the form of letters for anyone who may not know). I like to challenge myself, and I thought it would be a fun way of writing poetry in a way that's different from most of the other poems I've written.

What makes this a wee bit awkward is the person I wrote this to recently added me on Facebook after we haven't spoken in years. I'm going to let them make the first move, though, because I feel like that's what makes the most sense. After all they added me and not the other way around. So far they haven't said anything to me so I'm in this strange sort of limbo of are we actually friends again in the traditional sense or was it just an add for nostalgia's sake. I guess time will tell.

Be Better, Please!

This has been bugging me for a while, but I didn't know whether or not I should verbalize it. I figured that maybe just getting it out of my system might be a good thing. Maybe I'm not alone in my thoughts and someone could relate.

I've been writing since I was a child. I am always so happy when I get things published and out in the world, and to birth a new book baby into existence. It makes me happy to see my works out there in the world. Although, I do get a bit down about the so-called "lit community" or "writing community". It really does feel like a clique sometimes, one that I will never fit into. There are some people who I really like and have supported me back.

However, on the whole I feel really unsupported and unseen. It makes me sad because I see my friends getting put on indie books you should read lists, see people promoting my friends books, and see my friends getting opportunities. I am happy for them. Yet, I never see myself on any of the indie books you should read lists and I rarely see my friends promoting my work yet promoting the works of others. I probably won't say anything, but I definitely notice. It makes me feel small and unwanted as I did in junior high school when I did everything the popular girls told me to do because I thought they were my friends, but they were just mocking me and made a fool of me.

I think, as a collective, people need to do a better job of including everyone on their lists. I know there are many indie authors and inevitably some people will fall through the cracks sometimes, but I also feel someone as prolific as I am should be on some lists. It's really discouraging to be excluded all the time. It's just like when I was picked last in gym class or the games in elementary school, and it hurts every bit as much. Please try to do better. This is all I request!

I really feel like being included on these lists would help me sell more of my books. I also feel like if you're friends with someone you should try to help them, and not simply watch them struggle which is what it feels like some of my so called "friends" are doing to me. I probably shouldn't take it so personal, but it's hard for me not to. I've been getting published since 2011 and I feel like no one knows me or my work. It's frustrating!